dressrobes | IC Pr9spective: Kankri Vantas

Character name: Kankri Vantas
Player name: Ri
Plot-related? Nope

Hell9, students 9f H9gwarts and students at heart. 6eginning this m9st auspici9us year at 9ur prestigi9us academy, there are n9netheless s9me predictca6le c9cnerns to 6e raised in any such diverse gr9up 9f individuals. I shall attempt t9 6e 6rief.

9ver time I have n9ticed a startling lack of c9ncern f9r the feelings of y9ur fell9w students and staff. It pains me t9 see infighting and disc9rd t9 this degree. Theref9re I w9uld like t9 9ffer my inexhausti6le skill as a mediat9r, alth9ugh I am n9 l9nger technically 9ne 9f y9ur peers. If y9u have any c9ncerns, feel free to appr9ach me at any time. I will d9 my 6est to pr9vide a n9njudgmental envir9nment t9 f9ster g99dwill and free and in9ffensive discussion 6etween all parties inv9lved.

Enj9y the new year, every9ne, and warmest welc9me back t9 H9gwarts!

Hello, students of Hogwarts and students at heart. Beginning this most auspicious year at our prestigious academy, there are nonetheless some predictable concerns to be raised in any such diverse group of individuals. I shall attempt to be brief.

Over time I have noticed a startling lack of concern for the feelings of your fellow students and staff. It pains me to see infighting and discord to this degree. Therefore I would like to offer my inexhaustible skill as a mediator, although I am no longer technically one of your peers. If you have any concerns, feel free to approach me at any time. I will do my best to provide a nonjudgmental environment to foster goodwill and free and inoffensive discussion between all parties involved.

Enjoy the new year, everyone, and warmest welcome back to Hogwarts!

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Karkat, triggers are n9thing t9 j9ke a69ut. The afterlife-challenged have a hard en9ugh time as it is. S9me trap themselves in a sisyphusian cycle 9f punishment and reliving their 9wn MCS (M9rtal C9il Shedding – the c9mm9nly-accepted p9litically c9rrect term f9r the m9ment and circumstances ar9und 9ne’s change 9f state) 6ecause 9f whatever it is that they 6elieve they did wr9ng en9ugh t9 make them unw9rthy 9f passing 9n like m9st s9uls d9.

9n the 9ther hand, if I genuinely did say s9mething that triggered y9u, then I ap9l9gize, and hum6ly 6eg y9ur pard9n. If y9u c9uld enlighten me as t9 which t9pics I sh9uld av9id in the future, I will 6e very cauti9us as t9 d9 s9. It is the 9pp9site 9f my intenti9n t9 cause y9u distress with my presence. Least 9f all 6ecause we are family, whether y9u 6elieve it at the m9ment 9r n9t, 6ut als9 6ecause I dislike 9ffending any9ne.

SEE, I'M TRYING TO TAKE YOU SERIOUSLY BUT ALL I SEE IS RED MILES OF TEXT.
THE TEXTCOLYPSE.
THE END IS NIGH.
YOU CAN'T ESCAPE THE MILES.

YOU'RE NOT ALL...
GROSS AND STUFF, RIGHT?
LIKE SOME OF THE OTHER GHOSTS ARE?

...N9, Karkat. I am quite wh9le and intact, aside fr9m 6eing c9rp9really limited. My MCS was rather peaceful, all things c9nsidered. Frightening y9u 9r making y9u upset is the last thing that I want t9 d9. I understand that y9ur recent experiences have made y9u shy 9f the anat9mically disp9ssessed, and I am willing t9 respect any 69undaries that y9u w9uld like t9 set with regard t9 face t9 face interacti9n. The 6all, as they say, is entirely in y9ur c9urt. Whatever y9u are c9mf9rta6le with, I will a6ide.

I WOULDN'T BE UPSET.
I MEAN IT'S NOT LIKE I KNEW YOU OR SPENT A LOT OF TIME WITH YOU OR ANYTHING SO IT WOULDN'T MAKE ANY IMPACT ON ME.
BUT, UH, I GUESS YOU SAW HIM TOO THEN
SEEING HOW YOU'RE BOTH
WHAT WAS IT?
LIVING-IMPARED?
IT WAS JUST KIND OF A SHOCK.
IT'S NOT LIKE I'M AFRAID OF GHOSTS OR ANYTHING.

Edited 2012-09-01 05:49 (UTC)

I did.
And I am quite s9rry that y9u had t9 find 9ut a69ut his passing that way. It was difficult f9r me t9 witness, and I had n9t seen him in 18 years. I understand that given y9ur past experience, y9u may 6e l9ath t9 have much in the way 9f dealings with the c9rp9really-challenged. As I said, causing y9u undue stress is the last thing that I w9uld like t9 d9. Whatever y9u decide is the m9st c9mf9rta6le f9r y9u, I will respect y9ur 69undaries and n9t think any less 9f y9u f9r it.

NO, I
I'D LIKE TO MEET YOU.
I GUESS DAD MIGHT'VE FELT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR DEATH BECAUSE HE WASN'T MAGICAL AND COULDN'T PROTECT YOU, AND THAT'S WHY HE NEVER MENTIONED YOU TO ME.
THEN AGAIN IT'S NOT LIKE HE MENTIONED UNCLE SAL TO ME EITHER BEFORE HE SHIPPED ME OFF TO ENGLAND.
BUT THAT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING I WOULD DO IF ANYTHING HAPPENED TO NEPETA. DAD AND I WERE DIFFERENT.

DID HE SAY ANYTHING ABOUT ME?
ON PARENTS DAY I MEAN.

He did.

It was hard f9r him gr9wing up, being s9 much 9lder than Salvad9r and I. He was 23, already serving in the military when we g9t 9ur letters, and I can't imagine that he wasn't a little 6it put 9ff 6y it. Salvad9r and I were the first magic 69rn in 9ur family, and the visits and letters fr9m Armand dwindled after he was t9ld.
It can 6e quite difficult f9r n9n-wizard si6lings t9 deal with magical si6lings, particularly 6eing the 9ldest. Even m9re difficult still is when their 9wn child exhi6its signs 9f the same magic, and they are left t9 w9nder what was s9 different a69ut them that they were the 9nly n9rmal 9ne.

I 6elieve that even muggles have their 9wn f9rm 9f magic, particularly when it c9mes t9 th9se they l9ve.
He sp9ke 9f y9u in his usual manner, 6ut I c9uld tell that 6eneath that he was s9 pr9ud 9f you. That he and y9ur m9ther had t9 take advantage 9f the 6rief weakening 6etween this w9rld and the next t9 return and make sure that y9u were d9ing alright. 6eing n9n-magical, he c9uld n9t stay a gh9st. 6ut he and y9ur m9ther saw en9ugh that day t9 rest in peace c9nfident that y9u were g9ing t9 6e just fine.
I pr9mised them I w9uld watch 9ver y9u, 6ut even th9ugh it is thr9ugh m9re indirect means I 6elieve that they are 69th still watching 9ver y9u as well. Th9se we l9ve never truly leave us, and I speak fr9m experience when I say that it is very difficult t9 leave s9me9ne 6ehind.

[There's a long moment of silence on Karkat's end, and a couple of inkblots from his quill seep out into the page, watered down into splotches. He's not crying, or at least that's what he'll say if he's asked. Sometimes he regretted not sticking around on Parent's Day to talk to his mother and father, but he wasn't able to handle it. Not that time, and quite possibly not this year if there was another.]

thanks

[For that moment of silence, Kankri is afraid that he's said too much. That even though he was speaking half-truths, he still came across as disingenuous. That he's said something wrong and brought up the wrong memories for his young nephew.

He never was good at people.]

N9t at all, Karkat.

Are you alright?

[There's another moment as he regathers himself. Kankri didn't say too much. Actually, he said a lot of things Karkat's been wondering for a while but had never gotten an answer for. It made so many of his questions answered, but drug up new ones.]

I'M FINE.

[Back to big text.]

I'm glad t9 hear it.

D9 y9u have anything else y9u w9uld like t9 ask?

NAH. I THINK I BELIEVE YOU.

[Well that was a relief.]

Well then, I'm here if y9u decide that y9u w9uld like s9me9ne t9 talk t9.

IC Pr9spective: Kankri Vantas

#Paternal resem6lance isn't a 6ad thing #He had his flaws #6ut Armand was still my 6r9ther #tl;dr

#he was all flaws #world's worst dad #oh my god you are such a tool

#he saw them t99 #apparently that's h9w all the Vantas' f9und 9ut Armand was dead

#wow they suck at keeping up with family #karkat you liar

#Kankri has been living-impaired for 18 years #what's your excuse?

#his parents are deaaaaaaaaaaad #also the military sucks with owls

#this will 6e the 9nly time that Kankri lies

#sob

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