IC Pr9spective: Kankri Vantas

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Character name: Kankri Vantas
Player name: Ri
Plot-related? Nope



Hell9, students 9f H9gwarts and students at heart. 6eginning this m9st auspici9us year at 9ur prestigi9us academy, there are n9netheless s9me predictca6le c9cnerns to 6e raised in any such diverse gr9up 9f individuals. I shall attempt t9 6e 6rief.

9ver time I have n9ticed a startling lack of c9ncern f9r the feelings of y9ur fell9w students and staff. It pains me t9 see infighting and disc9rd t9 this degree. Theref9re I w9uld like t9 9ffer my inexhausti6le skill as a mediat9r, alth9ugh I am n9 l9nger technically 9ne 9f y9ur peers. If y9u have any c9ncerns, feel free to appr9ach me at any time. I will d9 my 6est to pr9vide a n9njudgmental envir9nment t9 f9ster g99dwill and free and in9ffensive discussion 6etween all parties inv9lved.

Enj9y the new year, every9ne, and warmest welc9me back t9 H9gwarts!

Hello, students of Hogwarts and students at heart. Beginning this most auspicious year at our prestigious academy, there are nonetheless some predictable concerns to be raised in any such diverse group of individuals. I shall attempt to be brief.

Over time I have noticed a startling lack of concern for the feelings of your fellow students and staff. It pains me to see infighting and discord to this degree. Therefore I would like to offer my inexhaustible skill as a mediator, although I am no longer technically one of your peers. If you have any concerns, feel free to approach me at any time. I will do my best to provide a nonjudgmental environment to foster goodwill and free and inoffensive discussion between all parties involved.

Enjoy the new year, everyone, and warmest welcome back to Hogwarts!

Comments

#tw: everything hurts #nothing is ok

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Hell9, Salvad9r. I missed you.

#nothing will ever be okay

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[There's no response for a few minutes. When it finally comes the handwriting is shaky and splotchy.]

no one calls me that anymore yknow
except dolly and sometimes mum

Re: #nothing will ever be okay

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D9 y9u have a f9rm 9f address y9u w9uld prefer, 6r9ther? While I have 6een keeping up with y9ur family affairs, I am still reluctant t9 use my unique anat9mically disp9ssessed privilege t9 spy. As such, I have n9t remained a6reast 9f y9ur preferred f9rms 9f address.

[Kankri thinks about how to respond for a moment. They're dancing around the important topic here.]

C9ngratulati9ns 9n y9ur app9intment t9 head 9f h9use, 6r9ther.
And 6elated tidings t9 everything else that I missed in my tenure as a pers9n 9f inc9nvenient disc9rp9ration. It was f9r the best at the time that y9u n9t kn9w, and as time w9re 9n it 6ecame m9re and m9re difficult t9 reveal myself, fearing h9w y9u w9uld respond. An 18-year silence is hard to 6reak.

I'm s9rry.

[accioleggings]

its fine
really

[Wow, this is. A thing.

A thing he's having a hard time handling right now where is his beautiful wife he needs a lap to lay his head on to cry.]

i
thank you
god, you really haven't changed at all
18 years of being dead
living-impaired, sorry, and you're just the same as when we were kids

[There are more large spots and splatters of ink along with more than a few other wet spots that certainly aren't ink.]

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[Kankri wasn't sure that it was possible for his heart to break when it was no longer beating, but when he saw his brother's tears staining the page he gave in to the impulse to pick up his journal and hold it close to his chest.

And then it fell through him and to the floor, and he had to reach down and pick it up.

For the first time in his life and afterlife, when he goes to respond, he is at a loss for words.]

Please, Salvad9r, d9 n9t cry. I'm n9t w9rth y9ur weeping. I never meant t9 upset y9u s9.

[accioleggings]

im fine i swear

this is just a lot to take in all of the sudden, you know?
its been a long time since i've seen your handwriting

kankri, please don't ever say you're not worth it
every tear i've ever shed over you has been worth it
you're my TWIN, when you died it felt like half of me did too

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I understand. I am s9rry that I hid fr9m y9u f9r s9 l9ng. Please 6elieve me when I say that the last thing I wanted was t9 hurt y9u.
Did y9u
I wr9te in y9ur
I tried t9 h9ld 9
I never meant t9 d

I am pr9ud t9 6e a6le t9 call y9u my 6r9ther. Y9u have gr9wn up well, Salvad9r. That is all I ever wanted f9r y9u.

Since y9u will 6e at the sch99l 9n a full time 6asis, I th9ught y9u deserved t9 kn9w a69ut my change 9f state, and I wanted y9u t9 find 9ut fr9m me instead 9f glimpsing me and thinking y9urself mad.

I w9uld like t9 6e y9ur friend again, 6r9ther.

6ut 9nly if y9u w9uld like that t99.

[accioleggings]

[Oops, more waterworks. Give him a minute, Kankri.]

i haven't had you in my life for 18 years
what makes you think i wouldn't want you back in it as soon as possible?

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[He's smiling almost stupidly. He would be crying, if he could.]

Y9u cann9t imagine h9w happy I am that y9u sh9uld say that.
I have always watched 9ver y9u, Salvad9r.
It is p99r f9rtune that I c9uld n9t have d9ne m9re.



I must warn y9u, I am 69th changed and unchanged fr9m when last y9u saw me. I will n9t 6e upset if y9u are alarmed at my change 9f state. 6ut then, we have kn9wn H9gwarts since we were 69ys. Y9u sh9uld kn9w what a gh9st l99ks like 6y n9w.
It will 6e g99d t9 see y9u again.

[accioleggings]

yes, i'm very familiar with ghosts, kan
i've worked with them since march remember
the fat friar plays an excellent game of wizard chess

[Wow, Sal, that was a terrible attempt at a joke.]

GOD I'VE MISSED YOU.