IC prospective; Feferi Peixes

[bubblingover]

Character: Feferi Peixes
Canon: Homestuck
Mun: Bubble
Plot specific: N


I am the only one who is seriously excited for the school year? I mean i love summer and spending time with grandma and all, but i really am looking forward to going back!!

I'll feel like something going to happen this year and i can't tell if it will be good or bad, but i know something going to happen, i am excited for whatever is throwing at me!! I will also promise to try my best at all my classes!! and not throw a fit if i am close to failing any!! ...maybe

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all these feels, why can't I hold them

[quasistellar]

[Constance is quiet for a few moments.]

He was different then than he is now. We were in the same year, back in school, and we would all pull him out of those books for a while every now and then. His father put a lot of pressure on him, and Merlin knows he needed to blow off the steam. So we'd go out, go flying for a while, try sneaking into the forest, all that. Hard to imagine your straight-laced mother doing that, I bet.

Murdoc went on to be one of the best Aurors the Ministry's ever had. A brave one, to be sure. It's how he got those scars he has.

I...life just took us in different paths, Feferi. I'd assumed he was still married when you and Meenah started at Hogwarts. I didn't know you two had a brother.

[She looks down, away from the picture, away from Feferi, for a moment.]

I was married to my work, threw myself into it because it was...I always wanted to see the stars for myself. I couldn't, after I had the two of you. I've been trying to create a spell that would let one Apparate into space, but to no avail so far.

And I...I owed you two better. You two should have known the story sooner than this. I should have contacted him.

...because now that he knows, he really wants to meet you properly.

Its ok, cause i cannot handle them either

[bubblingover]

[She can't help but giggle at her mother and her Hogwart's years. Tho, it does help shake off the nerves a bit and the old optimistic feferi is slowly coming back.]

Really? You and the professor used to run around Hogwarts? I could never imagine both of you making trouble at Hogwarts, always thought you were a more A grade student, keep your head in the book and only ever come out of them for Quidditch!

[Although, with that serious tone back again, feferi knew what that means and she wanted to reach out to her mother and tell her that everything was ok, so she reaches out to hold her hand. and also, gives some confidence back into her mother.]

Mum, I am not blaming you for not telling me or Meenah who our father was, it was a hard position you were in, both of you were in, it was the right decision to make at the time. So, please don't kick yourself for the decision you made, I believe you made the right one.

I don't think I could wish I was unborn, but i am really sorry that you weren't able to see the stars because of me. I mean with one door closing another opens right? I am sure you will find a way to see the stars one day!

[She lays her head on her mother's shoulder.]

So please Mum, don't kick yourself forever over this, my family has always been you, Grandma, and Meenah and I couldn't ask for a better family.

But yeah, i would like to meet him too, i mean i don't except him to the father i never had, but i would like to get to know him and Eridan as well.

;A;

[quasistellar]

Oh, we never made any trouble we'd get caught doing. But everyone has to blow off steam somehow.

[And that's her sweet girl. It doesn't seem right, that Feferi should be the one to comfort her, rather than the other way round, so Constance just pulls her into a hug.]

Feferi, love, I don't ever regret having you and your sister, so don't think that for a moment. Not for a moment. What I do regret is not being around as much as I ought to have been when you were younger. We should have been more of a family.

[She'll kiss the top of her daughter's head.]

But now is the time for mending bridges, as best I can. I'll go on and make those arrangements, and let you know when it's all set.

-hooooolds-

[bubblingover]

[She hugs her mother back, since she missed them a lot for most of her childhood, she will take as many as she can get now.]

Ok, well you can't change what happens in the past, but we can be a family now and that's what most important, right? I did miss having you around when i was little and all, but like i said, we can't change that now. So why not make a better future? And you are obviously trying to work towards it now, so i am sure we can do this together!!

[She gives her mother the biggest smile possible.]

Besides, we can make great memories now, so that even if you did miss a lot of my childhood, you can think about all the great times we are sharing now!!

Tho, should i know anything about my father, before i meet him? [She is curious about him after all.]

/clings

[quasistellar]

That's right, sweetheart. We can and we will. That's a promise, Feferi.

[Constance gives Feferi another kiss to the top of her head.]

Well, there's one important thing. He has a son about your age, named Eridan. You two are in the same year.

The other thing...he wants very much to be there for you, and he's very nervous about it. Almost as nervous as I am, to be honest.