I wanted t9 make myself kn9wn, 6ut I was scared. I am n9thing 6ut a shade 9f the past, y9u and Salvad9r 69th deserve t9 live f9rward in time. I supp9se 9n a m9re selfish level, I was aware 9f the internalized c9rp9realn9rmativity 9f wizarding s9ciety and I was afraid that my change in state w9uld alter y9ur percepti9n 9f me and theref9re y9ur mem9ry (y9u meaning 69th y9urself and Salvad9r).
6ut y9u kn9w me. Y9u kn9w that the last thing that I w9uld ever want t9 d9 is upset y9u and Salvad9r. I am starting t9 6elieve that it w9uld have 6een 6etter had I never decided t9 reveal myself. That y9u and Salvad9r w9uld have 6een happier and 6etter 9ff had I just left the castle instead.
[There’s enough of a pause between when he writes those last two sentences and when he scribbles them out, that she might have caught the jist of them.]
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I supp9se 9n a m9re selfish level, I was aware 9f the internalized c9rp9realn9rmativity 9f wizarding s9ciety and I was afraid that my change in state w9uld alter y9ur percepti9n 9f me and theref9re y9ur mem9ry (y9u meaning 69th y9urself and Salvad9r).
6ut y9u kn9w me. Y9u kn9w that the last thing that I w9uld ever want t9 d9 is upset y9u and Salvad9r.
I am starting t9 6elieve that it w9uld have 6een 6etter had I never decided t9 reveal myself. That y9u and Salvad9r w9uld have 6een happier and 6etter 9ff had I just left the castle instead.[There’s enough of a pause between when he writes those last two sentences and when he scribbles them out, that she might have caught the jist of them.]
I’m s9rry, Diedre.